Attempt #362
December 2020 I gave up on the individual journals for each child pretty much after Oliver. I realized I didn't really write in anyone's journal unless they were a newborn baby, after I started foster care. The guilt of this realization will eat at me for the rest of my life. So many little memories lost. Luckily even though I stopped writing, I never stopped taking videos and pictures. So, not as many memories lost as could have been. The the title of this blog---Emily Remembers. I just want to write down thoughts and feelings that I want to remember. I always try this in little notebooks, but it never lasts very long. So many good intentions, that prove unrealistic far too often. I need to learn to make smaller goals--so maybe my only goal right now is to finish this entry.:) I have had a lot of anxiety over so many things lately. Unknown court appeals from Monica, making sure I have the house in order, organizing Christmas, remembering to not forget anyone, makin